I’m Lost

My spirit is temporarily lost and I have yet to go and search for it. At 3:35am on Monday, November  15, 2010 I had a miscarriage I was about six weeks pregnant. I was calm and shocked all at the same time. I had started to suspect I was pregnant and had plan to schedule an appointment with my GYN that Monday and just like that my hopeful possibility was taken away. We have tried for a year to get pregnant and now I feel like I failed.

All my boyfriend can say is it’s going to be ok and ask me to stop crying and I in return ask him why he isn’t crying. I feel so empty now and the cramping and bleeding causes me to relive that moment every day. If it wasn’t for my daughter I probably wouldn’t get up in the morning. I’m trying to get over the feeling of utter sadness because I know my daughter needs me but it’s hard to build up the energy to do anything.

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